Sunday, October 31, 2010

i wish i'd never grown up

oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up, just stay this little. oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple. no one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred. and even though you want to, just try to never grow up.  
--taylor swift, never grow up.
tomorrow, i turn 16.
i opened my presents today, and people are already starting to post on my facebook wall, wishing me a happy birthday.
and i'm starting to realize just how old i am. 
don't get me wrong; i love a day dedicated to me.
i love getting presents
and having people tell me to have a happy birthday.
but...
a year from now, my best friend will be in college.
in two years, i'll be deciding on a college myself.
and 3 years in the future--if everything turns out as planned--i'll be doing my homework in a dorm room.

[ohmigoodness. i'm halfway to 32.]

i want to be little again.
back when sleeping with your blankie wasn't childish,
you fought with your friends and made up 3 minutes later,
everyone's favorite color was pink,
the word terrorist had no meaning,
when boys had cooties,
and your mom was the prettiest person in the world.

take pictures in your mind of your childhood room, memorize what it sounded like what your dad gets home, remember the footsteps, remember the words said, and all your little brother's favorite songs.
i just realized
everything i have
is someday gonna be gone.
--ts.
[i'm scared]

3 comments:

Jalen Jimenez said...

This made me sad...
It's so true though! Everything is sort of flying by us everyday and there isn't any way we can stop it!
Growing up is something that everyone does,
but are we all ready for it?
I don't THINK so!

Cassidy said...

I love that song even though it makes me sad. I agree with it so much though. It seems like in the four years you are in highschool everything flies by you and then you are out on your own.

joshmartin12 said...

Who does want to grow up it means that I have to pay Bills pay Taxes and spend my own money